From time to time
I wish not to be solid matter
Anymore
I wish not to weigh anything
Anymore
I wish to dissolve into the air around me and float for a second
Only for a second though,
Tomorrow I have to be in the office by 9
N° 33
We always find something to talk about
And when we don’t
We just look at
Each other
I like the way your pixelated self
Looks at my pixelated self
-romance amid the pandemic–
N° 32
When I’m in company
I have a habit of imagining
How they probably see me
It’s like taking a mental picture
Of myself
With the camera being the eyes
Of my counterpart
Does that one strand fall into my face
The way I know it looks best?
Is my laughter contagious?
Are my eyes sparkling?
Do I look pretty from their point of view?
Why the fuck don’t I concentrate
On my own fucking view
-self obsession vs. self destruction-
N° 31
You see,
I don’t think you need to fight
Anymore
That doesn’t mean giving up
It means
Befriending the enemy
They say there’s just a thin line Between love and hate
Stop the gunfire
And cross it
-a peace offering to myself-
N° 30
“What does it feel like?“
“It’s like wanting to exit
Out of your body
And leave it behind
Even though you know
It’s your mind.“
–explaining a panic attack to sane people–
N° 29
I felt me
Loving myself today
Took my heart into my hands
And kissed it
N° 28
It can be
A place
A sensation
A song
A person
A season
A venture
…
I think it’s the overall feeling of
A rrival
–the meaning of home–
When do you feel like you’ve arrived?
N° 27 [b]
Escape?
The urge to run
Is confronted by
The will to stay
Strong
Stronger
Breaking.
Becomes mending
Accepting
Becomes healing
After the finish line
Comes
…
–progress–
N° 27 [a]
Escape
Your worries
Bad company
Stressful events
Escape
Thoughts
Company
Events
Escape
Flee
Hide
Away
–the course of anxiety–
N° 26
Was I inspired
Or am I just imitating
Is this something I’m really good at
Or am I just following a trend
Do my words mean anything to others
Or are they just stupid
–there’s nothing more stressful than self-doubt–
Maybe. 